So!

I bet you are all wondering how it’s been going. Well, things are tight that’s all I can say right now. For the last week, I have been having such dozes of TLC that you can’t imagine. I even went to the beach to watch the sunset on Saturday… like the one at Tumwi’s and Iwaya’s.

Anyhow I am still scared but I think what I’m really scared of is falling for someone only to be let down later. For some reason, the thought that at one point reality has to set in and all emotion fade away is at the back of my mind. It’s pretty weird that I was with someone for almost 6years and even then he wasn’t sure that he wanted to get married and then this comes along.

Eh! life is weird for real. Anyhow this baby is not rushing into anything so you can all take deep breaths and relax until an update on this particular topic in 3months or should I first give it one month, which is when I will decide to date or not to date. Oh and also, it’s so weird to think of myself hooked after being single for ages or like I stated some time back, kinda single whatever that means.

Basically the independence, the excitement, the sleazy rendevous, you name it. You are contented to be your own woman. Then suddenly you are thinking in twos and postponing your programmes to make way for another’s and more scary is the compromise. Eh! for me I want to be selfish not be thinking of someone.

The addiction, desire to be with someone. Oh how I hate to imagine feeling like a drug addict craving a fix. And the tears when he hurt you or you have an argument. Cuddling your pillow as your mind runs through his broken promises.
Then the jealousy when another woman gives him attention. God forbid you read his text messages or go through his phone book.

Ok, the pessimist in me is taking control of this post… I can’t help it although I promised my gals that I could be open to opportunities, so here I am open. Can’t this gal think of the brighter picture?
Sun rise, sun sets, dancing in the rain, gazing at the stars, whatever, bring it on.