Soul searching

Stolen glances, eager hugs, the yearning feeling to wrap him up your hands and keep him there for hours. Then again the longing for the night to end so that you can have all these feelings all over again.

Sounds romantic, dreamy huh!(yeah I like writing about this stuff) But what happens when every time your heart skips a beat, you simply think about how the way he looks at you will fade some time.

How the memory of him holding your hand will be so distant that you will never imagine the warmth. How one day the buzz on your phone will never signal a text from him until after a week or two. How your evenings will yet again become crammed with the gals whom you had dumped countless times to be with him.
How you will no longer smile at your pc as you remember the beautiful things he told you or the way he looked at you.

You want to savour each moment you spend with him and swim in his affections. But that nagging feeling that one-day, sooner or later it will all end keeps coming to your mind. Should I end it before it even begins? Will it be different? Does it really have to fade; can’t it just be one of those nice things for the moment?You ask yourself.

Ok, enough of that ranting but seriously does any one feel this way? Before even starting anything with someone, does the feeling that such a beautiful thing will fade sooner or later hit you or you simply keep optimistic.

Anyhow the above is as per my conversation with the gals over the weekend. As we were having a man hating session, ok! Not really, we simply talked about how emotions are toe curling at the beginning only to fade later.

So the question was, why even bother if it’s gona end anyway. Do you see this trend… not good at all. But the girls argued that the rate of heartbreak doesn’t help matters. Personally what drives me mad or rather freaks me out is the thought that in a typical guy way, a man’s emotions will fade somehow. Blame it on experience if you want but the truth is that after the chase, guys relax and let you start doing all the work.

At this point in my life,am too exhausted to start the working. Blantly the idea of trying to impress a man endlessly is not appealing to me again blame it on dating proud or is it arrogant men who end up making you seem like the hunter after the chase.

Now what am I saying, gosh I even hate this whole rant, sounding like a man hater am I?I would love to but I can’t hate them that specie, I actually dig them. If only you would be able to tell the right one right away instead of trial and error.